Back again?

Back again. I need to be here again. After all this time, I need to tell my story. So much has happened, I've been to hell and back, I've been at death's door and back. I've been to so many places it seems, yet I've bounced back. I do not know for what reason, maybe life will give me an answer. It hasn't been rosy, nor flowery. It's been a hard painstaking journey. But I'm back. And I keep looking for the whys and the whats and the hows. I don't remember much, I remember enough to know I've been through an ordeal. That's it. And I need to write, but I don't even have the words to do so.