Not so good

Woke up, went to school, and back here. Thankfully. I feel so tired and not so good. Like a nauseous thing in the stomach, but it'll pass. Don't know why but I feel rather sad too, and I cannot find a plausible reason for that. I just watch the kids, and feel so tired, and think it's a good thing I don't have any or I wouldn't be able to take care of them and God knows where they would end up. So God up there, you know exactly what you're doing in my case. I keep thinking of Philip Larkin's, This be the verse...... they fuck you up your mum and dad, fill you with the faults they had and add some extra just for you.... get out as early as you can and don't have any kids yourself" It might sound a bit too much but he's so right. Well anyway I'll try and sleep my depressed state off, sleep works. It's always worked, especially when things get a bit too much. And there are so many people worse off than me, maybe I'm just acting up. Like my friend says, diva behaviour. Could be, but then you feel what you feel. Will be back later
AnnMarie