I am just fine, but quite simply confused. Something, somewhere doesn't tally. I know I am being watched, and no, it's not being paranoid and hearing the little voices in my head. Far from that. I hear a lot of things, as a musician we are trained to have our hearing extremely finely tuned. As a human being, sometimes peoples' behaviour speaks volumes. Oh and we can lip-read very nicely, that comes with the job too. When you have worked for 20+ years in the entertainment business, sometimes lip-reading saves your life. One look saves your reputation. And we can carry this on into everyday life. We know exactly what you're saying, yes even if you turn your back, we still know. I wonder how, but it's all in there.
But something's just not right. I thought I knew what was good and bad, what was criminal and what was not. Turns out, I probably still know, but someone is more intent on using CCTV cameras on me then anything else. There too I am confused. CCTV cameras are, in my opinion, used to ensure law and order, to give someone a second thought if they're thinking of acting in a wrong way. They are also imperative for catching criminals on tape. Now get this picture, why would someone avoid a camera like that? The only real reason I can come up with is, because they would be doing something which they wouldn't like to be caught on tape. Simple. And if you were doing nothing wrong, wouldn't you just not care about cameras? That's the way it makes sense to me. And that is the reason why I don't go about avoiding cameras, I might take up a lot of space on their film, but I'd be doing nothing wrong. And that is where things are not adding up. Why would someone try their best at trying to 'catch' me in something when they know it's useless? Is it because some people are control freaks and just having the chance of playing Big Brother make them feel they're playing God Almighty? Could be. And where does this psychological need for control come from? Do these people snap in private and turn into leashed doggies? During the two years I spent learning and practising Gestalt Psychotherapy, it has always transpired that the more controlling in life, the more submissive behind doors. People who do not care to be authoritative do not care about power and control. Turning a building into an AnnMarie Alcatraz isn't going to do it. I have no fear, I am not scared when it comes to defending my own rights. And I'm even less scared if I have to defend the rights of a little child. Anybody can play Master and Mistress and slave behind closed doors, in public if they think they can get away with it. I don't care for that. But not when it's costing one day out of the life of a little man.
But something's just not right. I thought I knew what was good and bad, what was criminal and what was not. Turns out, I probably still know, but someone is more intent on using CCTV cameras on me then anything else. There too I am confused. CCTV cameras are, in my opinion, used to ensure law and order, to give someone a second thought if they're thinking of acting in a wrong way. They are also imperative for catching criminals on tape. Now get this picture, why would someone avoid a camera like that? The only real reason I can come up with is, because they would be doing something which they wouldn't like to be caught on tape. Simple. And if you were doing nothing wrong, wouldn't you just not care about cameras? That's the way it makes sense to me. And that is the reason why I don't go about avoiding cameras, I might take up a lot of space on their film, but I'd be doing nothing wrong. And that is where things are not adding up. Why would someone try their best at trying to 'catch' me in something when they know it's useless? Is it because some people are control freaks and just having the chance of playing Big Brother make them feel they're playing God Almighty? Could be. And where does this psychological need for control come from? Do these people snap in private and turn into leashed doggies? During the two years I spent learning and practising Gestalt Psychotherapy, it has always transpired that the more controlling in life, the more submissive behind doors. People who do not care to be authoritative do not care about power and control. Turning a building into an AnnMarie Alcatraz isn't going to do it. I have no fear, I am not scared when it comes to defending my own rights. And I'm even less scared if I have to defend the rights of a little child. Anybody can play Master and Mistress and slave behind closed doors, in public if they think they can get away with it. I don't care for that. But not when it's costing one day out of the life of a little man.
