Friday, June 15, 2007

Figaro

Still going down memory lane.... this is one of the loves of my life.... Figaro. His stay here was way too short, 2 and half years, when they say cats have nine lives.... yeah right. Lovely cat he was, and it's not because 'chi muore e` santo'. He was the first born out of four, he actually was the one to make me a 'grandmother'. Probably the best-looking too, totally blonde and far from dumb. I could not believe I would lose him, it was so surreal, but the ca took over, and he passed on, perhaps to Rainbow Heaven, perhaps to normal heaven. But it was facing death, grief, mourning all over again. I suck at grieving, some people seem to get on with life so quickly, not me, I keep brooding, which is maybe not such a good thing. Ok some might say, grief over a cat??? Well we grieve human beings who don't deserve our grief, so what's the harm over cats? Figaro, I thought the name was so pretty in the handsomely, gallant was of the real Figaro.... Figaro qau, Figaro La.... etc. I keep looking at his picture with a big sigh. Why do the ones we love so much get taken away from us? Is it nature, God or whatever. He struggled to live, then took his last breath, wrapped up in a towel and lots of love. I will never forget the way he used to jump on me when I went to bed, put his face next to mine, and start a very loud purring session. He was content just to be there.

Well Figaro, you are still missed. Oh and remember I love you.... a lot
Figaro 23 -4 -04 - 21- 9 - 06

Time for more....

Time for another... blog. Unfortunately, another funeral too. This time, although I'm ashamed to say it, I don't feel very sorry. About time too. When someone good dies, it's such a shame, when someone whose actions have been not so good dies, it's another story. And we say they go to get their reward, well maybe rewards in afterlife vary, I'm sure they do. We'll see when it happens to me, I cannot say anything with certainty. Memories are flooding back... but I'll put them in my closet of memories. It's a big closet, but space there is unlimited. My memory lane has a lot of joy, some sadness, and some indifference. But I suppose it's that way for most of us.

It's 2pm and the funeral starts too. Will she get to meet him now? If she does what will it be like? I wish I could get there for just a couple of minutes to see, but we're not allowed that luxury. We will see when it's time up. Not now. But someday.

Feel hurt today, not funeral blues, not at all, but have realised some stark truth which is not pleasant. Truth hurts, but when it is your own flesh and blood doing it... well it's a deeper wound. And I think I'm right although nobody seems to think so. Well if the world seems keen on adoring Adonis.... maybe one day it'll be Venus' turn. And I hope I will live for the day.

AnnMarie