Quo Vadiz?

So I'm better off, or am I? I am certain about nothing, or let me rephrase, I am uncertain about everything, but not about one thing I know I am supposed to be doing. Why, when conditions are bad, when it's a constant struggle to get on, and it's still missed. And why do I think it is so difficult when I have weathered some tough conditions of life. I do not care for school protocols, I have no idea what they are anyway. I do it my way. The only protocol in my life is the do as you would be done by one. Ok sometimes I am in default there, too much passion. High flying adored... that is what I adore too. I know this blog sounds like mambo jambo, but then I know it is spied on (Teresa that is not meant for you), so I have to write in code, because once it's out on the world wide web, then God knows in whose hands it will end up. Key signatures, tempo, dynamics... they are all I breathe... and all I will breathe. Because God and Life have their ways, I am also sure of that.