Mind over heart

I have woken up to a spotless house... thank you Bridget. I have also been reading my cousins' blogs and this thing of not being able to keep house seems to run in the family. And that's a relief. Michale Jackson's song, You are not alone keeps running through my head. So I'm not on my own in this, but it still sucks anyway, seeing we are the daughters of clean freaks.

So much is happening right now, and so much will be happening pretty soon. I have to be strong now, to think and not to feel. Difficult when your genetic make up is 100% emotion, but this thing of people running away with me (metaphorically) has to stop...fullstop. It's going to be painful to do away with the old, I am a creature of habit, but it has to be done. It will take some tears too, but it's still got to be done. Talk about stressful, that's putting it mildly.

But i can still remember what my dear cousin, who is not one to lavish compliments, said to me four years ago... you look like you have your own personal stylist. Those were carefree days, when nothing really bothered me. Now, I have to decide which way to go. I am not sure it will be the right way, but I have to choose.

I just pray God will be with me in this difficult decision where love is going straight out of the window. Because now, I have to think and not feel.