Today I close a chapter of my life, to join the rest of the past. I can see the chapters of life categorised chronologically in my mind, some dusty, some old, wrinkled and faded, others quite new. This one is the latest though to look at it would not seem so, it's been opened and closed too often, some pages are dog-eared, other pages yellowed by time and nicotine. So I get a brand new chapter now.
I suppose I should write neatly, it's the first page after all. I'll try. I have so much to write, but I am still staring wondering how to put everything in order, trying my best to write unbiased fact. Today I learned how to remove myself from situations of verbal abuse. I also get another blow in love, not as in romantic love, other love. I realise that nobody likes the plain truth, so they say it's untrue. Great coping skills, it's like me saying I'm a blonde. How's that for delusional? I can also say I have a life, I party hard.... yeah pull the other one. I am sorry sometimes it takes drastic action to stop abuse, but in the same way I see battered people who keep on taking it, for me this is where it stops. It is painful, it is also painful because of the change it brings about. And I am not used to change. But this has got to be positive change.
So should I smile?? I'm not sure. Painful issues don't really evoke smiles. It's over, it stops here, no more the victim. Now I have to rise above all this and soar.
I suppose I should write neatly, it's the first page after all. I'll try. I have so much to write, but I am still staring wondering how to put everything in order, trying my best to write unbiased fact. Today I learned how to remove myself from situations of verbal abuse. I also get another blow in love, not as in romantic love, other love. I realise that nobody likes the plain truth, so they say it's untrue. Great coping skills, it's like me saying I'm a blonde. How's that for delusional? I can also say I have a life, I party hard.... yeah pull the other one. I am sorry sometimes it takes drastic action to stop abuse, but in the same way I see battered people who keep on taking it, for me this is where it stops. It is painful, it is also painful because of the change it brings about. And I am not used to change. But this has got to be positive change.
So should I smile?? I'm not sure. Painful issues don't really evoke smiles. It's over, it stops here, no more the victim. Now I have to rise above all this and soar.
