The one thing I learned from life, from one person in particular is patience. I don't see this person anymore, not that it matters at all. But through his clean good man looks, I learned that patience was one thing I didn't have. I wanted everything yesterday, still do sometimes, but much less. It doesn't pay to be rash, although I have been so rash, so jumping to things. But this man knew the value of patience, and at least I learned that. Injustice never goes far. So I am done an injustice, some years down the line, the arm of the law comes down on them. Or maybe the bad doers get so brash with their behaviour that they are careless. Whatever, they are bad doers and have to be brought to justice. I do not however harbour hatred, hatred is making a bad doer become important. Hatred makes you sick, letting go and leaving life to take it's own course is better. And while I'd like to say that I forgive... well in extreme cases, in cases when someone has wanted to eliminate you from the face of the earth... well revenge is sweet... just it will not be me taking revenge but life itself.
The wheel of fortune, destiny, and the circle of life... they move in a circle, an interconnected line of eternity. So I look back and have a choice - either being angry, or just calling a spade a spade. Anger, another monster. Sometimes it pays to be angry, most times it doesn't. People do not change and neither will I. People develop. So nowadays I can sit down and channel anger into something else... patience.
I like to think there is another life after this because I still miss some who have passed on. Some I will kick their butts for their wrong decisions, then hug them because the ones who are not loved are the ones who deserve being loved the most. And although some people shy away from me because of life's experiences... they really needn't. The pain of the past is what makes me me today, as do the joys of the past. And I have had plenty of joys. I just wish for one more, but time is not an excuse to make rash decisions... which makes me go back to point one. Think, think, think, laterally, horizontally, perpendicularly, vertically if you may, but think... and of course be patient. Every dog has it's day.... big sigh.
The wheel of fortune, destiny, and the circle of life... they move in a circle, an interconnected line of eternity. So I look back and have a choice - either being angry, or just calling a spade a spade. Anger, another monster. Sometimes it pays to be angry, most times it doesn't. People do not change and neither will I. People develop. So nowadays I can sit down and channel anger into something else... patience.
I like to think there is another life after this because I still miss some who have passed on. Some I will kick their butts for their wrong decisions, then hug them because the ones who are not loved are the ones who deserve being loved the most. And although some people shy away from me because of life's experiences... they really needn't. The pain of the past is what makes me me today, as do the joys of the past. And I have had plenty of joys. I just wish for one more, but time is not an excuse to make rash decisions... which makes me go back to point one. Think, think, think, laterally, horizontally, perpendicularly, vertically if you may, but think... and of course be patient. Every dog has it's day.... big sigh.
