Diamonds

If buying the biggest diamond in the world would solve my quest, I would. If it had a price tag, no matter how extravagant, I wouldn't hesitate to take my cheque book out .I would roam the streets barefoot if necessary.But diamonds come and end up sitting very prettily in my jewel case which is already loaded enough. And jewel cases are not like hearts, they are not made of some Lycra thing which allows them the necessary elasticity, but I could care less for all the jewels in the word. I want just one. The majority of diamonds are not flawless. But they still do the trick. And the majority of people are not diamonds either, and sometimes they are up to tricks. But if it's mischief, then that's OK. A mischievous spirit... that I can cope with. It's something far more ugly that I cannot handle. The world is not all wrong, nor was it intended to be. It's just that the wrong goes celebrated. No I am not a puritan, nor am I a pious woman. I just believe that there is still good around, that there are still some flawless diamonds around, and there are definitely some diamonds which are not flawless. But they're still diamonds. It's the intention, the hard work and the thought that goes behind a diamond's behaviour. But they're not coal, they're diamonds. And that works out just fine for me.

The waiting

I am not very good at waiting. Throw me into a dentist's waiting room and I'll be pacing back and forth like a lunatic. Throw me into a queue for whatever and I will make sure that nobody takes my place. If I want something, I want it yesterday. I rarely think about how and why, what interests me is the when. But this is different. I have been toying with this for almost one year now. And there is no way I can judge any pro or con because this doesn't come with weighing scales. One can weigh this and that when buying a car, but not when it comes to human beings. There is no price tag there, and of course no haggling. I know that all right. But it still doesn't take the sting out of the waiting. How much longer am I going to have to wait? It's bad enough for me who has her distractions, but how worse is it for someone who has no access to the distractions? Shining stars are all over the place right now, but when will my star shine? And when will his shine? Just where is the star which will show me the way? Where are the kings who will bring expensive gifts? I don't even need the gifts. I don;'t need a crib, or a donkey, or a cow or even a herd of sheep. In 2008 I have central heating. I also have a lovely bed all ready, it too waiting. The gifts? They are just a snap of a finger away. Everything's ready, I just have to keep waiting, hoping that he too will have enough tenacity to hold on for just a little more.