Tolerance

I have been told to watch out because my ideas lack tolerance. Tolerance and allowance. They're almost the same. Do I lack tolerance? It is something which actually hits home extremely well, it rings a deafening bell. For four years I was subjected to useless suffering just because someone's idea of tolerance was... kill the bitch, make her die. And I could do nothing about it. Then again I should not have been tolerated, because I wasn't doing anything to harm anybody either. I was just being, in a size 16. And if a size 16 offended someone, then it was his problem. Not so fast. It was his problem, but he made it mine. The intolerance turned to persecution, something very far from the meaning of the word tolerance. And perhaps that changed me quite a bit. Life played a part also. If you could spend 24 hours in my shoes, Manolo shoes may I add, then you'd see life very differently. I may look stupid, and I wish I were stupid sometimes, but I'm far from stupid. And nobody tolerates it, not even the media does. Why then should I start tolerating people who try to shove religious fairy tales up my arse? Fairytale is Norwegian Rybak. That's it. I do not want to hear about martyrs and how we should follow in their footsteps, because if that is so, then why don't the preachers really follow in their footsteps, skin themselves alive, make themselves into a Sunday roast, crucify themselves upside down... the list is endless. Those were perhaps special people who decided to die for God. And yet, God gave us life to take care of it, so that leaves me where? I do not admire saints who decided to lash at themselves with a whip, or to self torture. That, today has a name. It's called s and M, bondage, humiliation... and it's a sexy lifestyle. Did they really think that God loved them more just because they caused welts on their back? Should God love me less because I don't do the Santa Chiara thing and shave my hair off? Why don't nuns wax their hairy upper lips and put on some make up? Would that be sinning against God? So, is it really me who lacks tolerance? Or is it someone else? We are brought up thinking that 'our' Roman Catholic Faith is the most tolerant. Then you get the Bee Pope who is homophobic. Why doesn't he just go back to his German roots, not really famous for tolerance? What's wrong with gay people? Why can't they get married like the rest of us? Why can't they adopt kids? What's wrong with that? Plenty of gay men have come out of straight households, so the reasoning that a gay couple would produce a gay child doesn't hold. Even so, so what? Xenophobia? On to the infamous klandestini. Of course all man was made in the image of God. I have a hard time believing that. And yes it sounds as if I'm being very intolerant. But come and live at my house for a day and a night. One of the reasons I bought my house was because of it's then quiet and safe neighbourhood? Did I have a right to that? Of course I did. Not so know, when more than 100 klandestini given refugee status inhabit the block of flats opposite me. Sure they are people like you and I. But people like you and I do not hold street parties at 3am, do not litter my front entrance with take-away left-overs and wine bottles, we don't holler in the middle of the night, and we do not have sex standing up against my faccata either. People like you and I do not pee or shit on someone's doorstep either. Next thing I'm having a mobile toilet set up in my parapett, and then again I doubt if they'd use it. And oh, do I have the right to step out of my front door? I do, but I can't because they're all sleeping there in the morning and I'm scared to wake them up lest they bite me in the same way they bite each other when they fight. Tolerance? It doesn't exist anymore. It's all one big joke.