Pandora

Still not right but somehow when you've been not quite right for a couple of hours that becomes normality and you start getting used to the feeling. That doesn't mean it becomes less intense, but perhaps so do the human coping skills. Or not. It all depends. My coping skills include visiting shopping sites over the web, hitting eBay and just looking at stuff. Just looking, and I'm one to have been born to shop. But then I don't even have the energy for it. Which is serious, because shopping usually brightens up my day or night. I feel just like Pandora with this box given to me by Zeus and instructed not to open it. But there's a twist, I have also been blessed with the gift of curiosity so of course I've opened it anyway. And now I pay the price. I've unleashed all the burdens in that box tonight and it feels so heavy and oppressive and dark. No I have not opened the box out of malice, but out of curiosity which doesn't just kill the cat but me in the process. And I'd rather it killed me anyway because I love my cats too much. But then, even Prometheus got curious and enthralled by the secret of fire. It was all Zeus' idea to create Pandora as a punishment for mankind. Then, is that the reason why I look up to a human Zeus? Which becomes even more cryptic; because if Pandora was blessed with the gift of seduction, then is the art of seduction a punishment to man? Seduction is part and parcel of every day life, without it the human race would come to a halt. But perhaps I opened my box too early on in life, too much escaped from my box too fast. And yet, the sun will come out, because if all the laborious evil has been experienced, there's only one thing left at the very bottom of my box... hope.