Don't cry

I'm still fairytaling, and I feel so guilty. My best friend is now here. And I hope she doesn't cry. Because fairytales are not that different from the what if's, and that includes the what if we's. And I love my friend to bits. But I cannot help it, I too am lured by the 23 year old looking like 15 with a violin in his hand. And I am now hearing rumours I'm not sure I want to hear. They go something like.... you see, if it were JC.....! I don't want to hear them because they make me feel again ever so guilty with regards to my friend. Yet another what if which strikes very close to home. I don't want to hear any of this, so I'm staying in home sweet home. I feel split into three. And I somehow think my loyalty lies where my girl goes. Yes, I know, what about the twin bond? I just don't know. I am just sure I want to eliminate women in pink and men doing sit ups. What the fuck were they thinking? Back here again, please don't cry my girl. To the rest of them, please do not utter a what if JC in front of me. Because that makes me guilty. I'm fairytaling enough as it is. So please don't cry sweetheart, stand high and smile... because I love you regardless and it happened anyhow.