Resolutions

I am going to try and do a lot of things. I am going to try and get a new life, in a lot of ways. One way will be, I shall try and be more assertive. I let too many things go by. But then sometimes it isn't very much worth it. Another, I shall try and wake up at a decent hour. I cannot say I will go to sleep at a decent hour since sleep is never easy and I have to wait for it to perhaps give me hints on its arrival. I shall try not to hide anymore, because although I try to hide I don't think I'm doing a great job at it, and I can think of nothing as big as to hide under or behind or on top of it. I shall try and burn more calories, ideally by less food at 11pm because that when my love affair with food goes horribly wrong. My colleagues bring so much food to work, I don't. I give food a miss until 11pm when I really am awake. There is no point in eating when you're sleepy during the day and not hungry. But come 11pm, oh that is when the food door is open. Food and me. It's such a strange relationship. It's exactly as if I have an ongoing affair, I wait for 11pm, that would be the time a lover can get away from the wife and come to the mistress. And that is when food says viola` and starts looking inviting and then I suddenly want more, although I don't take food to bed because I love my bed too much and I'm certainly not filling it with crumbs which would then disable the sleep. So I shall try and look people in the eye and say what I think of them, because the result would be that I'd be burning calories in heated arguments. I shall try and not smoke as much, the problem is that I enjoy smoking too much. But I know it's filling my lungs with dreadful things which I'd rather not talk about. So I shall try and enjoy the rest of my 'single' life living a less harmful pattern. I don't have much time.