Jade

I have been following all the Jade Goody news, which hasn't been good. I'm not sure I ever liked Jade much, someone who signs up to Big Brother, well it's not as if they're doing something awesome. But I must admit Jade's stuck in my mind ever since I laughed so hard I almost wet myself, with her tragic words, "Rio de Janeiro? Ain't that a person?". Geeze Jade, didn't she ever go to school. Her mangling of the English Language didn't score points with me either. She was just a single mum, a loudmouthed single mum who just wanted the limelight. And she took the limelight by storm. Because we hated Jade Goody for what she represented; the tragic decline of the average British youngsters. And yet we secretly loved Jade for all her in your face confidence she managed to effortlessly pull. I remember once, I just wondered how nice it would have been to be Jade and have all that money. Now I don't want to be Jade anymore. Who the hell would have thought that this ex dental nurse would be dying at 27? That's too young to die. It is so unkind, a mum with two young boys, a mum who will be six feet under in a matter of weeks. No, I don't want to be Jade one bit. I don't care about her 1million deal with OK magazine. I don't care about her white wedding. I find it so strange. Why go to the trouble of getting married when you know you don't have much time left? But then maybe Jade's so sad that she's creating positive things to at least make the best out of her last weeks. I'm so sorry for loudmouth Jade now. Life's smiled at her only to deal her the cruelest frown of all. All because of cervical cancer which I wasn't even aware of. I thought things like these happened to old women. It seems they don't. And through all the mass criticism because Jade has chosen to make her passing away public, I on the other hand, bow to her courage. She's doing it for one reason, her boys. She is just a parent who knows her children are about to be orphaned, and she wants to give them the best possible chance in life. That means, that at a time when it should be all about her, she's thinking of her boys. And I can only applaud a girl like that. And cry. I really don't want her to die.