The waiting

I am not very good at waiting. Throw me into a dentist's waiting room and I'll be pacing back and forth like a lunatic. Throw me into a queue for whatever and I will make sure that nobody takes my place. If I want something, I want it yesterday. I rarely think about how and why, what interests me is the when. But this is different. I have been toying with this for almost one year now. And there is no way I can judge any pro or con because this doesn't come with weighing scales. One can weigh this and that when buying a car, but not when it comes to human beings. There is no price tag there, and of course no haggling. I know that all right. But it still doesn't take the sting out of the waiting. How much longer am I going to have to wait? It's bad enough for me who has her distractions, but how worse is it for someone who has no access to the distractions? Shining stars are all over the place right now, but when will my star shine? And when will his shine? Just where is the star which will show me the way? Where are the kings who will bring expensive gifts? I don't even need the gifts. I don;'t need a crib, or a donkey, or a cow or even a herd of sheep. In 2008 I have central heating. I also have a lovely bed all ready, it too waiting. The gifts? They are just a snap of a finger away. Everything's ready, I just have to keep waiting, hoping that he too will have enough tenacity to hold on for just a little more.