AA?

The mad rush to Christmas has begun. Everyone's becoming terribly impatient at checkouts, it's one mad mad rush. It is usually a mad rush for me too, but this time it's different. I know what I'd put first on Santa's list. I'd actually settle for the one. I've grown out of wishing I could fit into a size 8 bikini. I used to fit anyway, so it's a been there, done that. I also wished I could ride on a broomstick and take myself wherever. But I could never ride a broomstick anyway, and I like my creature comforts too much. During one particular year I just asked for a companion to live because I thought love could conquer illness, but it never happened because love can go a long way but it doesn't cure people. Every year I pray that my twin will be with me for the next year because I am secretly scared he'll be the first to go, don't know why, but it's scary. I also wish my cats and dogs stay healthy, because I do not deal with people and animals crossing over very well. And this year I have one wish. Perhaps someone reading this will have a heart or some sense. People procreate, but for some of us it does not come easy. It could be a blow, but there come the two always valid options. I could just sit on my sofa with a blanket, a tin of Quality Street and tons of tobacco. Or I could brave it out. I am actually braving it out. I'm up and about and trying to create something out of the nothing, because hello there, if there is AA then maybe someone ought to create a support group for those who are challenged in the reproductive area. It's easy to get bitter sometimes, but bitterness does nothing good. Whatever happens in life happens for a reason. I found the reason. I just wish it could have been found before. Christmas would have been such a nice time to start it. I won't back out, because I do not back off when convinced that something is for the best. I'll just pray for extra strength and hope, and for all the beautiful things in the world for a very special child.