The beginning....

I'm feeling terribly terribly pleased with myself. I finally let God, and God's done a very good job at it. One hurdle is over. The worst of them hurdles is over. Thankfully for me. This is another sign. Sometimes I stop to wonder if I am doing the right thing. But I think I am, and I am counting on God to give me a sign, some sign, even if it's another butterfly. Will I be able to carry it all out? So many questions, and so many of them unanswered. But I'm still going to give it my best shot. It's got to be a merry christmas, not just for the world, not just for me, but it's got to be the first very merry christmas for the little one. Somehow.