I am not sleeping well and instead, dreaming well. Dreaming well as in the meaning of dreaming a lot, but they are not necessarily pleasant dreams I am having. Sleeping is becoming a traumatic experience because I never know which world I am going to end up in during my sleep. So I remembered dear old Schumann, himself not a very mentally stable person, but one who could write beautiful romantic music. And one who actually wrote music in honour of dreaming, which he called, in his native German tongue, "Traumurei". "Traumurei" is one healthy to listen to piece of music, it's calm, and makes your mind wander off to pleasant things. But I figured since Dreaming meant Traumueri, my German being completely lacking, what would a dream as in a noun be in German? So I looked it up and just as I was expecting, there it was, the word is TRAUM. Perfect. So dreaming should actually be traumatic, the Germans must really have a way with words because that is exactly what each night is becoming; a traumatic experience which thankfully solves itself by night breaking into day.
Why do I dream, and why do I have to dream every single night? Well, what I know is that my brain receives stimuli from many different sources all day long, stimuli which are probably way too many for it to process. The mind prioritizes the stimuli and makes me aware of those that need immediate attention. The others are put on some subconscious level in my same 35 year old brain. Then I am an emotive person, so then there is a whole lot of emotions which the same brain acts on or represses. Example, when someone gets on my nerves for being really foolish and I want to kick his behind but I don't. Add to this the daily tasks I take for granted, That's a whole lot of work for my brain to do daily. It's a pretty neat system, if it weren't for my poor brain probably needing some time out.... hence the dreaming. Or at least that is what a normal brain does, hopefully one which is 35 years old too. So it must be that when I sleep, my physique also sleeps but my brain remains active. And the brain then, after a hard day's work goes off to play.
I really hope it is what's happening.
Why do I dream, and why do I have to dream every single night? Well, what I know is that my brain receives stimuli from many different sources all day long, stimuli which are probably way too many for it to process. The mind prioritizes the stimuli and makes me aware of those that need immediate attention. The others are put on some subconscious level in my same 35 year old brain. Then I am an emotive person, so then there is a whole lot of emotions which the same brain acts on or represses. Example, when someone gets on my nerves for being really foolish and I want to kick his behind but I don't. Add to this the daily tasks I take for granted, That's a whole lot of work for my brain to do daily. It's a pretty neat system, if it weren't for my poor brain probably needing some time out.... hence the dreaming. Or at least that is what a normal brain does, hopefully one which is 35 years old too. So it must be that when I sleep, my physique also sleeps but my brain remains active. And the brain then, after a hard day's work goes off to play.
I really hope it is what's happening.
