The God Issue

I have an an anonymous someone reading my blog. No problem with that. It's also a God-loving someone who is reading my blog. No problem with that either. But it's funny not in the funny way. Funny how this someone thinks goodness and evil are responsible for all the shit that happens in life. What about all the good things? Me, I think that both the bad and the good come from life. That is what life is all about. And no, just in case this someone thinks I do, I don't blame God and I don't blame devils either. I was brought up to think that God meant goodness, a loving God. And if it's a loving God then He does not bestow on us trials and tribulations. That wouldn't be fair, in the sense, why did she get less shit than me, and why did the other get it worse? No. my God is someone who watches day and night, even when we are so consumed with the on-goings of the 2008 world. What happens in life is determined by ourselves, where we happen to be, who we meet, what we do, and perhaps by fate. Because my God seems to have a penchant for free-will to his followers, so He is actually powerless on what happens. It is a powerful God if he so desired, but not just now, maybe later. If I think swearing and killing is one cool way to live, God cannot stop me because He said He would give me free will. If I choose to pray every day it is not because God decides to robot me into action but because of what I decide to do. But then again, free will is love. In love, of any form, we have to be as selfless as to be able to let our loved one go. God does not take them, that is total bullshit. Illness takes them, disease, accidents or the circle of life. God is there to pick us up regardless of whether we ask Him because He is sorry that we are hurting. It would be a cruel God had He to just wake up one day and say, " hmmm let's see what kind of trial I'm giving AnnMarie today..." It would be an even crueler God had He to behave in such a manner and expect more love and praise in return. Let's be real, can anybody praise someone who is cruel? No. It is against everything. If we have to love ourselves first, then it cannot work that way. So please let's forget the flowery language of God being a number 1 friend bla bla bla. God is God. That's enough.