Nigel?

So Nigel came and worked his magic as usual. The boy's good, terribly terribly good. But it is an effort to get on with him. We do not see eye to eye... that is an understatement. He seems to think that evading tax and fooling the government is a laugh. He thinks that having a baby, knowing very well who the father is and writing the the baby off as unknown father is something to giggle about. This is nuts. He thinks that having a child with an egg donor is a blast. He actually thinks having a child is not something to first think seriously about. It's like a Nike advert.. just do it. He makes me feel either mad or old. Now I have had my mad episodes in life, but creating human life is not a laugh, I tried explaining but he giggled all the way through. I so wanted to hit him hard with his magic brush. Maybe then his brain would have opened up. Human life is not a giggly thing, having an affair maybe, but actually conceiving is not. It may be a beautiful thing, but not something which teenage girls giggle about. They giggle because a boy has looked at them twice, and that's all very well, it's so natural. The would never giggle on seeing a pregnancy test turn positive I can guarantee that.

So have I become so old? Why does it seem such a big deal for me? Perhaps it is all based on perceptions and doubts. Nobody can guarantee anything in life. And while life has it's highs, I have also experienced it's lows. And do I want to pass that on.... according to Nigel he wants to leave something behind him... yeah right that is such a good reason for creating human life. Better stop here, I think the lad's going to drive me mad. But... he's still magic when it comes to hair.